Here I go again. I'm not sure why I keep trying to find something new to do at work.
Bottom line: It won't happen. Not right now anyway.
This week I approached my boss again, at my mid-year review. He had said that he wanted to talk about my future at our place of employment.
He said, like my 2008 review, that I am an exemplary employee. He said that if I behave myself, unlike him, I would have a chance at being a deputy in our department. Deputy? That is my life goal? To be a deputy?
Ah well, on with the conversation.
He knows that I want more money, but it was obvious that he wasn't going to fight for more for me. He asked me how we can create a new position for me and told me he would try to figure out how to get buy in from leadership. He said that I needed to create a job description and he needed to figure out how to train someone up for my position. He wanted to make sure that the position was under him He didn't want it to focus at all on the knowledge management stuff or too strategic.
I've heard this before. It has really messed with my head and I'm starting to understand why as I've taken a little more time to reflect over the past few days.
When I worked for different corporations in this city over the last 10 years, I was treated differently. The first organization gave me a $6,000 salary increase when I said I was thinking of leaving and showed them a spreadsheet showing what other recruiting coordinators made at that time. If you go from making $26,000 base salary to $32,000 – that's a pretty nice salary increase. A year later I was working for another company and asked for a raise because I was moving from a benefits specialist position into a recruiting coordinator position – I went from a salary of $40,000 to $46,000 within a couple of weeks. I had worked hard at both of these places and had proven my value.
Now, here I am making over $100,000 a year and have contributed to my organization in so many ways – product development, program management, process improvement, content management initiatives, early adopter and implementer of web 2.0 technologies, etc. They have treated me well in salary increases each year (assuming that I liked what I made up front), but don't want me to move forward it seems. They want to keep me in my role forever. A few other people that started a lot lower on the totem pool than I have, have now jumped far ahead and are given a lot more credibility than myself. Sometimes they have sited that the "PhD" has made all the difference.
This has been a huge trial for me. However, I've scheduled to take part of next week off and will also be taking a week at the end of the month. So, I'm hoping that I can get a lot of creativity going during the time. I want to be in another job by July 1st of this year.
Writing about it will help me hold to it.
Whew – now this is all out of my head. I need to make sure I don't live this same year again.
No more Groundhog Day or Deja Vufor me.