I went to bed at 5 a.m. this morning and got up at 7:30 a.m.
I am exhausted. In a past life this would not be so. But, that is past and this is now.
Why? Why do I do this to myself? I am finally understanding why some people say that the “demons got to them” because that is what happened to me last night.
We interviewed someone who was under qualified and the boss knowing that still created ways in his head to justify the fact that person would be a good back-up to hire. Though I thought I had a good talk with him about it, something about it must have gotten to my head. Maybe it was his comment about the fact that he had coached her for the interview with the team. He had told her not to point out what she couldn’t do in the interview and told her that you should never do that. Oh, contrary. That is something that is important to be honest about in an interview process. After all, experienced interviewers know that they are there to find out if they even want the position as well.
I came home and looked at my resume. Wow. It’s really a good set of skills. Big problem in this context however. I was brought in on a lower band and stayed there for three years even with all of my raises. I just barely got moved up to the next band last year. Hmmm. And, I started the position with at least 10-15 years of solid experience in jobs that often overlapped AND I had a masters degree.
My heart and mind have been so offended that I don’t even know what to say. All I know is that it motivated me to stay up all night and revise my resume and add more to it to further convince myself of my self worth. I was up until 5 a.m. and could only sleep in until 7:30 a.m. since I had to go to work.
This is why recruiting properly is so important. It is always good to bring in new talent, but it is even more important to keep your current talent happy. After all, they have proven to you time and time again that they have been there, performed and have stuck it through the hard times.
This is like Groundhog day in my head and I’m not very good at getting it out. However, rest assured. It will get out and I will move forward. It will just take me a while and I’ll have to fill up a few more blog entries about it before I am finished.